You know whats not good for me: I'm becoming a procrastiasian again... o_0;...

Earlier this semester, I actually finished college assignments/study etc. not just on time but early that I had no idea what to do with the surprising free time I had. Then I slowed down the pace just cuz I was slightly ahead (of myself really huh) and now, while I still finish assignments on time, it's last minute. I hate this, cuz then the next downfall will be being too late or never doing it. :( Must be sophmoreritius kicking in this "spring." I say "spring" cuz weather is always a mystery? that a question mark should officially be at the end of the word...

But anyway, I partially blame xanga for it. :D

damp! I haven't been here since like a little while ago... been more active on youtube which isn't saying much more. :P http://www.youtube.com/Cliffycliffz

@ q.: maybe? the past few years I have a surge of sugar. more specifically, a craving for sugar/candies. when I don't get enough of it, I tend to get more stressed out easily and tired. xD... usually eat twizzlers, mike & ikes, hot tamales, hersheys, etc.even in the morning, and all day. and I eat kinda weird... om nom nom nom...

this is a weird question. :]

   

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Don't normally dream.
Dream I had as well as I can remember and describe:

I was at a school cafeteria in a school uniform, dress shirt, jacket, tie, dress pants, dress shoes. Unclear why, but I had a gun and was surrounded by a huge crowd, just the other students gathering around and such. I had a gun, and shot two randomly. I didn't check to see if they were dead, I just heard two bodies fall to the floor, everyone panicked and ran. I realized what I did in horror and felt an overwhelming amount of guilt, yet couldn't believe what I just done, almost in denial. In a sad kind of rage, I whipped the gun on the floor and it slid on the floor and under the giant wooden doors into another room.

Next scene, I ditched my jacket and tie in some attempt to sorta disguise myself from everyone else. Apparently, there was an alert that there was a shooter in the university and that it was possible that there was more, and campus police and such were here now. I was awkwardly wearing just a white t-shirt and black gloves. I walked by the room where I threw the gun into, and the apparently the police had set up a table to check students and I saw the gun laying there. If only I held onto it I thought, now they would be able to figure out I shot it probably with a gun autopsy later since I wasn't wearing gloves then. This room was right by the main entrance so I walked out of it. This whole time, luckily no one knew me or recognized I was the shooter oddly enough to my favor.

Appropriately enough, it was raining lightly outside and I felt kind of cold. I stood outside and looked up at the sky a little bit as in despair of the crime I committed and wanting the rain to just wash it away or something. As the rain began to let up, I noticed three people also outside. Two of them were together, a boy and a girl wearing the same uniform from my school, no doubt going outside to feel more relaxed similar to me. The third person was a pale girl with blonde hair standing by herself looking at me. She was wearing a different school uniform so I got curious and walked over to her.

She looked a little bit young to be in our university other than the fact that she was wearing a different school uniform from ours. I found out that she was English and 13, and her class had come to visit or something, today of all days I thought. She said she just wanted to get away from all the commotion by going outside even though the gunmen could be anywhere, or right in front of you I thought. She didn't question why I was dressed the way I was outside which I thought was interesting and somewhat suspicious since I had to be a little paranoid, nor did we exchange names. The sky was sunny again at this time.

She turned around and began to walk away from the university and I followed her. We began walking down a hill by the school that led to turns like a maze underground sort of. After a few minutes we and were about halfway down, I said what makes you think this is the exit to her? Of course she wouldn't know her way around here yet I was following her without a word of protest and she probably thought she knew where she was going or something too. We both sorta smiled and laughed, then I wrapped my arm over her shoulder and we turned around and began walking back up the way where we came from up the hill.

Then I woke up and the dream ended.

I wonder what it means? I have my own personal interpretations of some of it. I wonder what a psychologist would think?

I think by not knowing everyone, I felt overwhelmed an in a act of quick rage, killed two people. They weren't specific targets or anything either. Then I felt guilty of my actions and threw away the gun. Then when I went outside to get some fresh air, realized how stupid it was and I didn't even hold onto the gun since I was lucky enough to get out unrecognized as the shooter. It was raining outside until I met this girl that wanted to leave the place like I did and then it became sunny again. I think the rain could mean I wanted the sin to be washed away and the sun represented how I felt better afterwards just by meeting her? Thank you angel wearing jeans - Dane Cook, well she wasn't wearing jeans. I think the maze represented something complex, long, and warped but I don't know what. Then the fact that I just let things happen when we were walking to a dead end sort of and then turning things around but this time not too late? I dunno... but this was an interesting dream with too many twists to interpret to start off the day.