Tuesday, 27 March 2012
Sometimes I wonder how hypocritical I may be.
A brief conversation with a senior citizen made me realize it yet again.
I was thinking about how if she died, in my own mentality, even if she does not have much life remaining, even if the lost of her life would be of little significance to her, I thought about how her death may impact her friends, family, whatever social relations she may have accumulated over the years.
I then realized how contradictory and hypocritical I was yet again, because I have thought this many times over the course of my life, but I tend to think along the lines of:
"I haven't accumulated much significant social relations with other persons. If I die now, especially sooner rather than later and thus having more chances and time to accumulate such relations, it would be of no lost whatsoever to anybody or anything. Be best to limit casualties with damage control."
Similarly, if I survive long enough to attain advanced age (surely without much advanced wisdom or special relations), I have nothing to lose with nothing left in front of what little future I have lingering.
Yet, I think otherwise for another person. I give them the benefit of the doubt, while belittling myself.
- Time flows, I guess everything changes?